Will God Ever Forgive Me? Father Can You Hear Me?

In a few days, November 16 to be precise, it's going to be my birthday. While I'm excited about it, a better part of me has spent the past few days reflecting on this past year and I realized that the question that I struggled with most this past year was "Will God Ever Forgive me?"

How many of you can relate to this question?

On various occasions this year, I asked God whether he would ever forgive me for the stupid things I did, the mistakes I made and the wrong steps that I took. I remember where I was this time last year, what I was doing and what was going on in my life.

I vividly remember the struggles I was facing and how determined I was not to make the same mistakes again. Now, a year later I feel not only disappointed in myself but also ashamed.

With tears rolling down my cheeks, I write this piece.........

I ask you, how pathetic is it that almost 365 days later, I'm still fighting the same battles? I can't count the number of times that I've been to God to apologize for the same thing over and over again! I'm exhausted! I'm tired sinning continually and I'm ashamed of asking God to forgive me for the billionth time! I can't even imagine how God feels about me. I imagine when he sees me coming into his presence he's thinking "here we go again .... what else is new?"

But here is the gist of the whole matter, God is good! Wow! I'm amazed at his glory, embraced by his mercies. He is the Master of the Universe, the King of Kings, the One who sits upon the throne and makes the earth his footstool. The bible says that "For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him." Psalms 103:11 "The LORD is gracious, and full of compassion; slow to anger, and of great mercy." Psalms 145:8 I'm humbled and I bow before you oh God...

So, while I might have go my own way, and done my own thing, He still forgives me. He continually forgives me. That is why I can still go boldly into the presence of God, because he forgives. He is mighty to save. He loves us like no other. He is my Father, and he never gets tired of me. I know it. Father, can you hear me? Please have compassion on me.... Your Word says ....

 "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God." Romans 3:23 "For if we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us". 1 John 1:8  "But if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us of ALL our sins and cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness." I John 1:9  "As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us." Psalm 103:12


So knowing this truth Lord, I pray you forgive me for not listening to you, for turning deaf hears to your instructions, for setting my eyes on a man you have clearly told me does not belong to me, for unholy thoughts, for been jealous of my friend because she's doing better than me, for being in a hurry. I'm sorry for not studying your Word enough. Father, I pray you forgive me for making the same mistakes over and over again.

I know I don't deserve your forgiveness but FATHER I AM SORRY!!! FORGIVE ME!!

What are you sorry for? Regardless of what it is, He's waiting for you to ask for His forgiveness and you will get it. Just ask!

Love,

8 comments

  1. Wow!your post just hit the head of the nail.Of late, i had wandered away from GOD.And I ask myself, How long will i sing the song by "J MOSS FORGIVE ME OH LORD, ITS ME AGAIN"When the going gets tough i get angry at God, i struggle to pray, don't read His word.And deep inside I know HE is all I need.OH lord forgive me!!!Its me again!!!

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  2. hmmmmmm ive actually been grapling with the same thing..... having an unforgiving spirit makes one too hard on themselves...to the point that ure choking on urself; which as funny as that sounds is a very candid reality.

    some of us have to learn to live by grace,not 'deserving'. now thats hard when we believe we deserve only when we have 'earned'. coming to terms with deserving simply because of 'his grace' especially when u cant get the concept of Gods love? thats hard.

    it reminds of something one of my mentor pastors said, that the above attitude is a manifestation of the spirit of 'legalism'. yep.
    thats what makes u feel empty and hold on to old unfulfilling, un-God filled patterns.

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  3. Thank you, I'm glad there is someone who can relate to me. Blessings!

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  4. Prodigal child. This happen to me also, always sinning. Ah! I need prayer

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  6. GOD bless you for sharing this with us. may almighty father forgive all of our sins. IJN

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